Jesus Wept: The Death of Father Kenneth Walker, FSSP

Jesus Wept-  The Death of Father Kenneth Walker, FSSP s

At a Phoenix Catholic church on June 11, 2014 Fr Kenneth Walker was murdered and Fr Joseph Terra brutally beaten by a man paroled from prison six weeks earlier.

“Jesus wept.”  Those two words in the Gospel of Saint John (11:35) comprise the shortest sentence in all of Sacred Scripture.  Upon the sudden death of their brother, Lazarus, his sisters, Martha and Mary, were consoled by many in their community.  When they heard Jesus was coming, Martha went out to meet him while her sister Mary remained inside.

Martha engaged Jesus in a dialogue of faith in light of her brother’s death, but Mary challenged him with another kind of statement of faith: “Lord, if you had been here my brother would not have died” (John 11:32).  Jesus asked to be taken to Lazarus. He saw Mary weeping, along with many others who had come to console her. Then, “Jesus wept.”

I must write of the tragic death of one of my brothers, Father Kenneth Walker,young man I have never even met.  I must write of this because I have friends who knew him, and who know Father Joseph Terra who was seriously injured in the attack that took Father Walker’s life.  Like Martha in the Gospel account, I, too, believe Jesus is the resurrection and the life.  But like Mary, I, too, want to say in my grief, “Lord, if you had been there, my brother would not have died.”  But  I believe in my heart that Jesus was there, and upon this senseless scene of human brokenness and tragic loss, Jesus wept.

For some who were not there, however, this story has all the makings of dark journalism.  Father Joseph Terra, age 56, who went to investigate noises in the church courtyard, was ambushed and brutally beaten with a tire iron.  Father Kenneth Walker, 28 years old and ordained just two years ago, walked in on the scene and was murdered by the intruder.

Gary Michael MoranThe man arrested for the murder and assaults is 54-year-old Gary Michael Moran, paroled from prison just weeks earlier having been convicted in 2005 of home invasion, burglary, and assault with a deadly weapon.  In that case, he had stabbed a man in the abdomen before being subdued.  Four years before that, he was sentenced in another case involving weapons.  Moran did not know any of his victims then or now.  In 2005, he said that he was crazed on methamphetamine, and cited a long history of drug abuse and its usual desperation for money to feed itself.

And in what has suggestively become the darkest fodder for politicizing the news of this tragedy, the gun that was used to kill Father Kenneth Walker did not belong to the crazed killer. It belonged to Father Joseph Terra.  As the dust settled upon this case, I had no doubt that one or both ends of a political and moral spectrum would take this up, take it out of its context, and abuse this aspect of the story ad nauseam into a cacophony of political correctness.

That would be neither fair nor just, and if this aspect of the story gathers steam into a post mortem controversy, I believe you should give it the attention it deserveswhich is none whatsoever.  Father Joseph Terra bears no blame whatsoever for this tragedy, and is in fact one of its victims.

Fr Kenneth Walker FSSP Funeral

THE DUTY OF DEFENSE

Already, the mere fact that Father Joseph Terra owned a gun is littering the online world with suggestive overtones of  disdain. Columnist EJ Montini, writing June 16 for AZCentral.com, had a posting entitled, Should Catholic priests carry guns?  Of the murder of Father Walker, Mr. Montini wrote:

“The two priests operated in a tough part of town. And priests have as much right to protect themselves as anyone else.  But does it seem incongruous for a priest to have a gun?…the former altar boy in me can’t imagine any of the priests I met as a kid carrying a weapon.”

I am not advocating that priests carry handguns, and in fact there is no evidence at all that Father Joseph Terra ever did. According to the news accounts, after being brutally beaten with a tire iron, which fractured his skull among other serious injuries, he had to flee the scene to retrieve a weapon kept in a rectory nightstand.  He then returned to try to stop the intruder from intruding any further.  The crazed meth addict allegedly wrestled the weapon away from Father Terra, and then shot and killed Father Walker who had just entered the scene.

Can “the former altar boy” in EJ Montini imagine the priests he knew as a kid being beaten to death in their churches by crazed meth addicts?  Until he can, he has no right to cast a shadow on the fact that a citizen who defended himself was also a Catholic priest.  These men of God were not attacked for some high ideal such as their profession of faith.  They were attacked – one murdered and one nearly so – for the mere contents of their wallets, and whatever plunder could be carried off.

EJ Montini equated this scene with a story of a World War II priest chaplain in a war zone who was “armed” only with his rosary.  The comparison was an insult to both our intelligence and our faith.  Has Catholic culture in America become so comfortable with the notion of the last two decades that its priests should be little more than expendable targets with no ability or right for self-defense?

One friend with whom I spoke of this case by telephone this week asked if my position on Father Terra’s gun seems incongruous with the case against capital punishment that I laid out in “Stay of Execution: Catholic Conscience and the Death Penalty.” It is not, and in fact the very same moral principles apply to Father Terra’s right and duty of self-defense.   The Catechism of the Catholic Church (CCC 2263) quotes Saint Thomas Aquinas in the morally legitimate defense defined in CCC 2264 and 2265:

“The act of self-defense can have a double effect:  the preservation of one’s own life, and the killing of the aggressor. . . The one is  Intended; the other Is not.” (St. Thomas Aquinas, Summa II-II, 64, 7)

“Therefore it is legitimate to  insist on respect for one’s own right to life.

 Someone who defends his life is not guilty of murder even if he is forced to deal his aggressor a lethal blow.” (CCC 2264)

“Legitimate defense can be not only a right, but a grave duty for one who is responsible for the lives of others. The defense of the common good requires that an unjust aggressor be rendered unable to cause harm.” (CCC 2265)

THE DEATH OF FATHER MICHAEL MACK

This story has brought back to me the full brunt of another tragic and eerily similar death of a priest with whom I once lived and who was – and remains – my friend.  It’s an account that has come back to haunt me many times in the 12 years since it occurred, and with the Father Walker and Father Terra tragedy it has come back to haunt me again.  I wrote some of this in a post called “The Holy Longing: An All Souls Day Spark for Broken Hearts,” but I had left out an important factor that I have often reflected upon since.  What if I had been there?

On December 7, 2002, the Vigil of the Immaculate Conception, Father Michael Mack started a letter to me in prison from his rectory room in a parish in the Gallup, New Mexico Diocese where he had been assisting for several months.  In the letter, Father Mike wrote of his decision to return to his community, the Servants of the Paraclete, and indeed was leaving that moment to commence the four-hour drive.  He promised to continue the letter upon his return to the home he and I once lived in while I was a guest of that community, and a member of their staff in a ministry to wounded priests.

Late that night, as I was later able to piece together, Father Michael’s letter continued.  Upon his arrival at the Servants of the Paraclete residence at midnight, he wrote of his happiness at finally being home, and of  his hope that he might visit me in prison, might correspond more, and might help restore my freedom.

As he finished his midnight letter, Father Michael, who would have turned 60 two weeks later, did not know that he was not alone in that house.  A 33-year-old drifter named Steven Degraff had chosen that night to break in through a back door, noting that the house had been empty for weeks as he staked it out. Armed with a knife and a hammer, hiding in a closet just fifteen feet from the desk where Father Mike finished his last letter to me, Steven Degraff awaited his moment to spring upon my friend.

Father Mike took his letter outside to a mailbox to be picked up the next day, and then walked back into that house to his death.  His body was found the next day.  Father Mike had been beaten to death with a hammer. The intruder then took Father Mike’s wallet and fled in Father Mike’s car.

Being in prison where no one can contact me except by mail, Father Mike’s last letter to me reached me just minutes before news of his murder.  After mail call on the evening of December 12, 2002, I sat at a table outside my cell to read my friend’s letter.  I can never forget this moment.  As I read, someone laid the previous day’s newspaper on the table.  With Father Mike’s letter still in my left hand, I turned the page to “National News Briefs” and read of his murder.

Days later, Steven Degraff was arrested in neighboring Santa Fe County for stealing yet another car, and for drug paraphernalia. He had served prison sentences in four states before killing Father Mike, a crime for which he confessed to police.

December 2002 was also the height of the nationwide explosion of claims of sexual abuse by priests, and the lurid news was not lost on Steven Degraff.  Once Degraff talked with a lawyer, and learned that his murdered victim was a priest, he changed his story.  This 33-year-old sociopath admitted that he broke into the home, but added that he killed Father Mike because the priest tried to molest him.  Fortunately, even at the peak of the nationwide witch hunt about priests, Steven Degraff’s story was dismissed as a blatant lie, but not before it became lurid fodder for some in the news media.

Since then, I have often thought of what I might have done had I still lived in that house and was there with Father Mike that night. These are not pleasant thoughts for a priest – for anyone.  In more reflective moments, I wish I could have left in that house the means for my friend to defend his own life.  I have no doubt in my mind that if I had been there, Father Michael Mack would not have died.

BLAMING FATHER TERRA …RAISING UP PSYCHOPATHS

Finally, I must write of this story because I have lived for two decades with one foot in both worlds: the world of Father Kenneth Walker whose life was taken, and Father Joseph Terra, beaten and scapegoated, and the world of Gary Michael Moran, the career criminal and methamphetamine addict released from prison just six weeks before these horrific Phoenix crimes.  I do not, as you know, live in that latter world by choice, or even by any act of my own.

But in the two decades in which I have been forced to live in that world, I have encountered many men like Gary Michael Moran and Steven Degraff in prison.  Don’t think it is lost on me for a single moment that Moran had been paroled from prison three times – and the sociopath Steven Degraff four timesduring the two decades that I have been kept in prison for crimes that never took place.  This story is not about me – I know that – but it’s a sobering thought for anyone who still believes America’s criminal justice system is not broken and still works in real life like it does on TV’s “Law and Order.”

Far more than prison itself, however, it is the “Pollyanna” naiveté of so many Americans – both Catholics and not – that I find most demoralizing.  The notion that men would not possibly accuse Catholic priests just for money is laughed at in prison by criminals like Gary Michael Moran and Steven Degraff.  I have met some in prison who have snuffed out lives for a tiny fraction of the $200-grand doled out by my diocese to anyone ready to point at any priest.

I can no longer even count the number of times the minds of criminals have wandered in my direction, exploring ways to exploit our Catholic blindness about them while priests are thrown out of ministry – and sometimes into prison, and kept there.  Should my post,Our Catholic Tabloid Frenzy About Fallen Priests now include even those who seek to defend themselves?

Might this tragedy in Phoenix cause some soul stirring about the bigger picture it represents?  We can hope, and in fact it already has.  A remarkable blog post by Rebecca Hamilton, Guns; Blaming Father Terra for Trying to Defend Himself; And Raising Up Psychopaths,” (June 20) stands out among all the suggestive undertones about who wielded the murder weapon and how.  I recommend reading all of it, but here is a portion that gave me pause:

“Guns are not the problem. We are . . . The problem is our unwinding society and the feral young people we  are raising up inside it ….The blame-Father-Terra crowd is part of the problem...Good, normal people are always at a disadvantage in these situations…”

I have prayed for Steven Degraff over these twelve long years, and I will pray for Gary Michael Moran.  So will the families, friends, and parishioners of Father Joseph Terra and our tragically lost son and brother, Father Kenneth Walker.  These people are not Catholic lite.  They know their duty to the Gospel, and they will do it.

And as for Father Joseph Terra, I hold you in the highest regard, and with the deepest respect.  I humbly ask for your prayers, and from prison I offer you my fraternal blessing. May Divine Mercy reign in our hearts.

Fr Joseph Terra FSSP

Fr Kenneth Walker FSSP

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About Fr. Gordon J. MacRae

The late Cardinal Avery Dulles and The Rev. Richard John Neuhaus encouraged Father MacRae to write. Cardinal Dulles wrote in 2005: “Someday your story and that of your fellow sufferers will come to light and will be instrumental in a reform. Your writing, which is clear, eloquent, and spiritually sound will be a monument to your trials.” READ MORE

Comments

  1. Fr Gorden I will continue to remember you in my prayers.

  2. ESSEJ says:

    Fr. MacRae, Keep up the good work! You are an inspiration to so many. The parish priest now reaches a world wide audience.

  3. Jeannie says:

    Hello FAther Gordon.
    I am a conservative CAtholic who joined the NRA primarily in protest to the attempt of our government to revoke a freedom that they are constitutionally prevented from taking away.
    This leads right into the thoughts of the founding fathers, that our Constitution does not work UNLESS there is a Christian foundation. As was stated well, we have a ‘feral’ young people because they are being encouraged to believe that bad is relative and pleasure and sex are the height of the human aspiration. Never mind that the orgasm is now to REPLACE and EXTINGUISH human procreation.

    Thus a society committing murder of itself.

    I was surprised to discover that the respect for life, the respect for how to handle guns and the respect for our freedoms are all far more prevalent in the NRA. SMall wonder their numbers have skyrocketed.

    If you want to save lives you let the peaceable citizens be armed against the drug addled armed who get their guns illegally and who will not be stopped one bit by gun control. In fact you probably know better than most that prisoners are the biggest fans for gun control…it makes people an easy target.

    When I lived in Houston it was pitiable how often the multiple murders were due to the drugged folks who no longer could tell right from wrong.

    A ‘then’ mayor encouraged a neighborhood watch and they took back their neighborhoods and in one year murders were down 72 % . In the present day people are discouraged from this and told that they have not the right to protect themselves.

    The injustice done unto you makes you a terrible danger if you are freed. You could make enormous headway in exposing the hypocrisy and corruption.

    How ironic that a priest unjustly accused is so closely associated with another situation where the priest is being treated as expendable due to a media’s sordid pursuit of the atheist dream where Catholicism is eradicated.

    We pray for them and loathe the sin.

    And always pray for you, Father Gordon.

  4. Mary Fran says:

    Fr. Gordon, another good post. Which one of your offerings isn’t? Again, please don’t EVER stop writing. Sad that it had to be about a tragedy. I think highly of all the FFSP priests I’ve had contact with in person or just through audio. Thanks for putting a link to the Rebecca Hamilton article. I hadn’t seen that one. Excellent thinking. Another sane voice, like yours, that is being ignored by those in power in this insane world of ours.

  5. Kathleen Riney says:

    Just yesterday, the “Mother Jones” Mag Rag posted in an article about the Hobby Lobby case, the following..”Maybe it’s time to shoot all Christians”! Where is the outcry on that!! In Texas, that’s called a “Terroristic Threat”. I continue to Fast & Pray for an Earthquake to break you free Fr. G. But, you’re already Free, as am I. My grown children think I’m senile because many times, “for no reason” I break into tears. I watch how they live, who they believe,….Not just them either. People do not want to know what’s really going on! That’s why it’s so easy for the evil ones to throw them a scapegoat. But I’ve found a way to bemuse myself. I imagine these Creatures, standing face to Face with their Creator…explaining to Him, why they had to fix His Words….A lost Soul is Not funny…..that’s why I said ‘bemused’…It just helps put things into perspective. And Jesus will Weeo!

  6. James Hawes says:

    Fr. MacRae,
    That was one of your best articles. I knew Fr. Walker as he was a deacon at our FSSP parish in Omaha. He was the best friend of our associate Pastor, Fr. Massimo Botta, FSSP and the murder of Fr. Walker hit him especially hard. I didn’t go to the funeral but did a holy hour (actually turned into a holy two hours) during the funeral, at our parish church. Knowing Fr. Walker and his history, he probably stopped in Purgatory long enough to say hi to friends. I just get the feeling he is in Heaven praying for us. Fr. Kenneth Walker, ora pro nobis.

  7. Tom says:

    Thank you for this. It brings to mind the murder of Monsignor Thomas Wells in his rectory in Montgomery County, Maryland, with many parallels to the murder of Father Mack. He too was murdered by an intruder who then robbed the rectory and once caught, when he learned that his victim was a priest, also tried to trot out the “I was molested” defense. Fortunately that never took hold but the then-State’s Attorney also tried to seek the death penalty against the perpetrator, Robert Lucas, until the family publicly opposed the move as a violation of the pro-life tenants of the faith they and Monsignor Wells shared. There were other violations of Mr. Lucas’ rights by State’s Attorney Doug Gansler and Maryland’s Court of Appeals cited them in their reprimand of Gansler in the case Attorney Grievance Commission v. Gansler. The court concluded, among other things, that in Mr. Lucas’ case and in others, “On numerous occasions, Gansler spoke outside of court about matters that had a substantial likelihood of depriving several criminal defendants of fair trials.” At the root of the problems in the criminal justice system is the mentality that it is all a game for political gain and profit, with little concern for rehabilitation or real public safety. The concept that putting someone in a concrete box for a set number of years and abusing them the whole time, then magically kicking them out the door with no rehabilitation and no resources will somehow make us safer is ludicrous! But that is at the heart of how our criminal justice system “works” in America today. I am convinced that the only rehabilitation that takes place in prison is self-initiated and self-taught. I believe that people do find rehabilitation and redemption in prison…but is it despite the system and not because of any great work being done by those departments that we ironically call “corrections”!

  8. Josee in Texas says:

    Dear Father, Thank you for that most interesting article. I happen to know of more than several priests and ministers who have been murdered. The press here did not, as far as I know, make any judgement about these two priests. Carrying guns, even by the clergy is not remarkable here! My parish priest received menacing anonymous letters threatening to shoot him at the altar.The congregation secretly carried guns and were prepared to use them.A minister at a nearby protestant church and his secretary were murdered not long ago…criminals believe that the churches hold untold riches..there for the taking. Drugs obviously play a part in the homicides.In England the murders of priests, ministers and their families are more sinister in that they are directed at people merely because they ae the church.

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