Someone recently came across These Stone Walls by accident, and spent a few hours reading the three-part Case History above. When he finished, he wrote me a letter. “I don’t know why you haven’t lost your faith,” he wrote. “And I don’t know why you haven’t lost your mind.” I wonder which would be the first to go. There are lots of people around me here with a tentative grasp on both.
For a long time in prison, anger was my most available emotion. It devastated my faith, and it turned my own mind against me. Anyone who has ever struggled with chronic anger will agree that its most destructive force is aimed at one’s self. I think it’s even more self-destructive for a priest. It’s difficult for many priests to let anger show. I never, ever take anger out on the people around me. It would just simmer and burn inside until some part of my mind and soul began to give way under its weight.
It took a long time for me to put anger aside. I had to learn to channel its simmering heat into surrender and sacrifice. This is a process, not an event. It’s a work in progress, and sometimes I backslide into the righteous anger borne of false witness. How could I not?
I felt a grim reminder of it all yesterday when I read the story of James “Jamie” Bain. In a Florida courtroom in 1974, nineteen-year-old Jamie Bain was sentenced to life in prison for kidnapping and raping a nine-year-old boy. It was a heinous crime, and Jamie endured heinous treatment in prison because of it.
Thirty-five years passed. Then, a week before Christmas last month, Jamie walked out of a Florida courtroom a free man after it was proven that Jamie had no connection whatsoever to the crime. The 19-year old turned 54 in prison.
DNA evidence preserved from the crime scene absolutely excluded Jamie Bain as a suspect in the crime. For 35 years, the real criminal walked free while Jamie suffered decades of being labeled a child rapist in prison. On the steps of the courthouse after his chains were removed, he faced a small group of family and reporters. He asked to be taken home to his 77-year-old mother. She was 42 when Jamie was taken off to prison. He also asked for a Dr. Pepper. It had been 35 years.
Across the nation, 247 wrongfully convicted prisoners have been released after preserved DNA evidence proved that the wrong person was serving the prison sentence. Most were convicted of sexual assault, and many served 20 years or more in prison before being exonerated.
In the case of Jamie Bain, the sole evidence against him was an eyewitness identification by the traumatized nine-year-old victim of the awful crime. The boy described his attacker’s bushy sideburns. His uncle, a high school principal at the time, said, “That sounds like Jamie Bain.” That was all it took. When a photo lineup was placed before the boy, he picked out Jamie Bain. Now, 35 years later, there are lingering questions about how much police detectives steered the boy toward that photo.
The most sordid aspect of this story is the behavior of prosecutors long after the trial. Multiple petitions to have the DNA evidence retested were thrown out of court when prosecutors vehemently opposed them. The Innocence Project got involved with their own attorneys, and finally the DNA was tested. A prosecutor conceded to the judge that Jamie Bain had no connection to this crime.
“I’m not angry,” Jamie Bain said on the courthouse steps last month. “I’ve got God.” I’d say it’s the other way around. God’s got Jamie Bain. What else could have preserved his soul and his mind for 35 years of mistreatment in prison?
BERNARD BARAN
In addition to the 247 men exonerated by retested DNA evidence, there are also exonerations when no real crime was ever committed at all. In June of last year, a Berkshire County, Massachusetts judge announced that all charges were being dropped against Bernard Baran who also went to trial for child rape at the age of 19. He was released at the age of 44 after spending 24 years in prison for a crime that now appears never to have taken place at all. The judge who released him declared that Bernard’s lawyer at trial was incompetent and prosecutors withheld crucial evidence of Bernard’s innocence.

That evidence consisted of videotapes of interviews with the child “victims.” The tapes showed them insisting that no sexual assaults ever took place while interrogators kept asking the same questions over and over until the children changed their story. All the children’s denials were edited out of the tapes before they were presented to Bernard’s defense lawyer – and to the jury.
Bernard Baran was himself raped and beaten during his more than two decades of wrongful imprisonment. The National Center for Reason and Justice (www.ncrj.org) sponsored Bernard Baran’s new appeals, and helped win his release. The NCRJ also sponsors my defense, and I am most grateful for their advocacy. I highly recommend spending some time at their website, and at a new related blog, Friends of Justice.
Sometimes, the prosecutorial misconduct in sexual abuse cases is just a subtle form of “spin.” In one now thoroughly discredited sexual abuse case that has been widely written about – the Massachusetts case against the Amirault family – the specter of child pornography rose to the surface. When not a shred of evidence for it was found, the prosecutor said to the news media, “the fact that child pornography wasn’t found doesn’t mean it never existed.” So, the absence of evidence is evidence of evidence!
TERROR IN PENNSYLVANIA
Two months ago, Representative Tom Murt filed legislation in Pennsylvania that would increase penalties for knowingly filing a false police report about a crime. The legislation was inspired by something that happened a decade earlier to Michael Gallagher, a highly respected, and now retired, Abington, PA public school teacher.
I am proud to write that Michael Gallagher is a frequent commentator on These Stone Walls. He’s a devout Catholic with a strong sense of God’s justice and mercy. I have been very moved by Michael’s devotion to his Church and faith. It’s a fidelity that centers him and empowers his personal commitment to justice – a commitment that began when Michael lived through a dedicated teacher’s worst nightmare.
Michael had been a respected and highly praised teacher for 26 years when the police showed up to arrest him on January 22, 1998. A former student had claimed to police that Michael repeatedly raped her a dozen years earlier in the 1985-1986 school year.
“I was thrown in jail . . . and then paraded in handcuffs to the District Justice’s office with every major news channel there,” Michael said.
Michael was arrested, booked, and finally released when he and his wife put up their house to secure a $150,000 bail requirement.
Michael was then suspended without pay from the teaching position he held with professional respect for 26 years. The 23-year-old former student claimed that Michael raped her more than 20 times. Michael’s face was plastered on newspapers and in the evening news throughout the region, a tactic often employed by prosecutors and contingency lawyers to generate more claims against the accused. For ten months, Michael, his wife, Betty, and their three sons ages 18, 24, and 30 braced for a high profile trial. Trial by media and innuendo was already well underway.
Every step of the way, Michael and Betty wondered how they would cope when the money ran out. In addition to the suspension without pay, the Gallaghers faced $45,000 in legal fees to defend Michael. Michael’s friends and family stood solidly by him. Perhaps the most telling statement of support came from Betty:
“I think I know my husband after 32 years of marriage.” I have no doubt!
In Cotton Mather’s 1692 essay, “The Wonders of the Invisible World,” Mather defended the “justice” of the Salem witch Trials. Among other “proofs” utilized was a practice of binding a suspected witch’s hands and feet, tying a heavy stone around her neck, and throwing her into a pond. If she somehow managed to free herself, this was evidence that she was guilty of witchcraft and she was hanged. If the accused sank to the bottom and drowned … well, maybe she was innocent after all. This was the state of juridical due process in 1692 Puritan America.
When I wrote “The Dark Night of a Priestly Soul” for Priests in Crisis two weeks ago, I mentioned that a claim of sexual abuse is far more devastating for the innocent than for the guilty. I had Michael Gallagher in mind when I wrote that. On October 20, 1998, Michael realized that his criminal trial was but a month away, and that a group of 12 strangers would determine his guilt or innocence. If found guilty, the 60-year-old teacher would face a long prison sentence. The thought of possibly going to prison for something that never happened was unbearable. “That was the worst day,” Michael said.
The next day, October 21, 1998, Michael’s lawyer showed up at his door. He told Michael to pick a date for a celebration. The charges had been dropped because prosecutors somehow learned that the 23-year-old accuser had made the entire story up. It was over, but not before Michael had to pay again to have his record cleared after he was exonerated.
Is such a thing ever really over? Michael, being Michael, immediately turned to advocacy for other victims of false allegations. The 23-year-old accuser simply walked away from the case with no accountability whatsoever. Michael Gallagher can best describe the spiritual and emotional devastation this false allegation exacted from him and his family.
Last month, a Massachusetts high school teacher was exonerated after facing a nearly identical plight. A 14-year-old student accused him of sexual assault. Months later, his life in near ruins, the teacher was exonerated at trial when it was learned that the girl made up the story because the teacher had reprimanded her in class. Here in prison, men often joke about how easy it is to set someone up in this way. Some have openly asked me for the names of priests who might have been present in their childhood communities so they can bring an accusation for money. (See “Sex Abuse and Signs of Fraud.”).
A few months ago, a self-described member of Voice of the Faithful wrote a scathing message to me. The writer, a retired teacher, declared that any effort to revisit the case against me is “nothing but a misguided right-wing conspiracy.”
The man’s criticism was responded to by a friend who asked him what makes him feel so immune in an arena in which anyone can be accused by anyone, from decades ago, and with no evidence whatsoever. His blustering response was, “I have absolutely no fear of EVER being accused of such a thing.” Well, neither did Michael Gallagher. Neither did I until it happened.
AGAINST THY NEIGHBOR
Dean Koontz is the most popular writer here. His books in the prison library where I work are checked out more than any others. I’ve read that Dean Koontz is a devout Catholic, a fact that made me think better of him as a person if not as a writer. I just find his books to be too scary, and I have more than my share of scary stuff in my life already.
Dean Koontz doesn’t even register on the scary-meter, however, when compared with The Wall Street Journal’s Dorothy Rabinowitz, winner of a Pulitzer Prize for Commentary and literary skill. Her 2003 book, No Crueler Tyrannies: Accusation, False Witness and Other Terrors of our Time (Wall Street Journal Books, 2003) brought chills that would make even Dean Koontz shiver. What made her book so terrifying is the fact that it’s true. A Washington Times reviewer wrote of it:
“[No Crueler Tyrannies] should be required reading for prosecutors, judges and governors, because it is a testimony to the way our legal system can be manipulated, where the power of suggestion gets in the way of truth.”

One of the quotes on the “About” page on These Stone Walls is from the Book of Exodus 20:16 – “Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor.” The prohibition is repeated in the Book of Deuteronomy 5:20. It does not refer to the casual stretching of the truth that occurs in office gossip around the water cooler or between neighbors – though I don’t underestimate the damage that can take place from gossip. The Commandment specifically refers to false testimony in a juridical proceeding. This became all the more crucial for a system in which one person’s word could condemn another. The Book of Deuteronomy addressed this directly:
“A single witness shall not prevail against a man for any crime or for any wrong in connection with any offense … Only on the evidence of two witnesses, or of three witnesses, shall a charge be sustained. If a malicious witness rises against any man . . . and if the witness is a false witness and has accused his brother falsely, then you shall do to him as he meant to do to his brother; you shall purge the evil from the midst of you.” (Dt 19: 15-19).
How is it, then, that priests accused from twenty, thirty, or forty years ago – with no evidence whatsoever beyond the word of someone who stands to gain hundreds of thousands of dollars – are presumed by so many to be guilty?
I think Jamie Bain, Michael Gallagher, Bernard Baran, and the hundreds of others who have been exonerated after long and hard fought battles for the sake of their names, have something to tell us about the power of false witness. We should listen to them.
And I should listen to Jamie Bain who stood on the courthouse steps last month after 35 years of wrongful imprisonment and declared to us all,
“I’m not angry. I’ve got God.”
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Dear Father MacRae,
I can fully relate to your righteous anger. Scripture teaches: “In your anger, do not sin.” This imples that anger itself is not a sin. It is just an emotion. It is the emotion that one gets when one is about to lose something. You are being forced to spend each day of your life in jail unjustly; That natually causes righteous anger. I would be angry too.
Your anger should be directed toward the faulty legal system. You would not be suffering had Deuteronomy 19: 15-19 been the law of the land. Your accusers would not have falsely accused you if they risked spending decades in jail themselves had it been shown that their accusations were false.
Jesus said that he did not come to abolish the law but to complete it. Deut 19 should still be the law. Let us all pray that it becomes the law again so that justice can be restored.
It gives me joy to see that you have not lost your faith amidst all this.
God bless,
Anthony
I spent March 17 in the Missouri capitol asking my legislators to agree on a Moritorium on the dealth penalty. So much poor prosecutor work, judges with liquor on their breaths, beatings by police to elicit a confession…all these judicial errors have sent Missouri men (black) to prison for over 15 years in several cases. Time for people to examine if the death penaly is working…the American Justice Institute says that it does NOT work…is a little bit of time in order to exhonirate (sp) the innocent who did not have $$$$ for a quality lawyer. I pray justice is done for Fr. MacRae very, very soon….In Christ, Patricia
Fr. MacRae: I can only echo every one of the above emails. Incredible as it seems, those who lie just walk away. They should have some sort of activity…community service to make a point and perhaps they will not repeat this lying. I received your beautiful letter, Father MacRae for the icon art I sent you.
I am happy to have my work in your kind hands. In Christ, Patricia Cornell
Dear Father MacRae,
Thank you for sharing these stories with us. What a remarkable man Mr. Bain is. Every time I pray the Our Father, I try and think of someone who has wronged me, so that I might forgive. It just doesn’t happen to me often.
I cannot imagine how difficult it must be to tear forgiveness from your heart, when it has been broken by the unimaginable injustice you have suffered. Perhaps that is how hearts grow bigger. You and Mr. Bain must have great hearts!
I returned home after two weeks away and found that my Christmas card to you had been returned. I’ll send another letter right away.
Your friend always,
Kathy Maxwell
Another week’s post with Total Impact!! You get me with every post, Fr. MacRae. I am glad I am going to adore the Blessed Sacrament today during the hour of mercy.
There I will throw down the anger and the sorrow I feel after reading this, and I will ask God for forgiveness, peace, truthfulness, and every good thing He and only He can give us.God bless each and every one of you who suffer because someone lied about you, and because those who could have helped you, did not. Jesus knew there would always be a Judas.
As always, you remain in my prayers and in my thoughts, never forgotten. God bless you and keep you Fr. MacRae.
Dear Fr. Gordon,
When I read your post, I immediately thought of this passage of Scripture taken from the psalms: “Mighty warrior, gird your sword upon your hip. In splendor and majesty ride triumphant for the cause of truth, meekness and justice ” (Pslam 45). It occurred to me that “These Stone Walls” has a vocation to ride on for the cause of truth and justice so that many innocent persons may be saved. Be assured of my fraternal prayers.
Msgr. Michael, JCD
To all suffering servants like Mike Gallagher and Father Gordon who like The Suffering Servant on Calvary’s cross never betrayed their God in heaven I pray for your continued strength and resilience in carrying your crosses,
Your faith is a powerful light in the darkness.
I loved hearing of Jimmie Bain’s answer
“I’m not angry. I’ve got God.”
What a wonderful example to all of us.
Thanks so much for this post Fr. I never realized so many innocent people were being convicted.
I will offer a holy hour this week for all those that are falsely accused of crimes.
Father, thank you for writing this post. It’s so sad, I have nothing to say except to offer my prayers for you and all victims.
Our Mother Perpetual Help, pray for us, esp ppl of Haiti O Patroness of Haiti
This is certainly an outstanding article, Fr. Gordon. No doubt because of you, and my other dear friend, I think I have come to the same conclusion as Michael Gallagher stated in the last paragraph of his comment tonight.
Do think sometimes God uses extreme measures to teach us a lesson he wants us to learn–especially when He is trying to teach us to go beyond ourselves to help others in need. I pray I never forget to extend that helping hand to all who need it, in any way that I can be of help.
Father,
All through this post all I could think of was the death penalty. It is bad enough that innocent people spend countless years in prison, but how many others are sent to death row?
It just seems to me that certain professions/vocations lend themselves to being open to witch hunts.
Stories such as yours and, Jamie’s and Michael’s are heartbreaking. As is the story to which Julie alluded. There was also another story that same week of a young priest being relieved of his priestly duties after being accused of sexual misconduct. One allegation and he was relieved of his faculties. As a teacher of 24 years I sympathize with Michael’s story.
Thank you for bringing these stories to light.
My continued prayers.
Silence and prayer for all the victims. That is all I can manage after such a post!!!
Christ be within us and let us recognize Him in others.
Father, stories of innocent people falsely accused and languishing in prison, makes me so sick. Yet I am always amazed that they do not seem to harbor hate or ill feelings. God bless them. Thank you for sharing.
BTW, I only watched the Shawshank Redemption once. Can’t bring myself to watch it again. I found it too disturbing because the main character was innocent.
Dear Father,
Thank you for continuing to write and tell us not just your own story, but that of others. As always, I finish reading with tears in my eyes and a sense of horror so deep it really is inexpressible.
I don’t know if you’re aware of this one, although I suspect you are, but in the Joliet diocese a priest was recently accused of sexual abuse. He jumped from a balcony in a locked church, and was found critically injured in the pews, an obvious suicide attempt. I don’t know how he is now.
Sadly, this will seem to some to be an act of guilt….but for we we are aware of what happened to you, and the false accusations seeming to run unchecked, and all the lives (and priesthood!) destroyed…it’s not hard to understand why this priest saw no other way.
There is no such thing as justice…for anyone accused of heinous crimes, especially if the one accused is a priest.
These stories of falsely accused individuals still makes me feel so badly and by reading what Father MacRae said about me just brings me back to that day in 1998 when I was paraded in handcuffs by two burly officers into our district court.
I knew the judge and thought because there was never any evidence nor witnesses that his false accusation would just go away. It did not as the judge bound me over for trial. That was unbelievable but just as incredible was the support I had not only from my family but from neighbors, other friends and especially teachers.
I was very fortunate in being exonerated from this vicious charges nine months later. I did not realize, at the time, what the criminal justice system really can do to innocent citizens of our nation; only too well documented about my good friend, Gordon MacRae.
To this day, I divide my life into two separate parts: the one before January,1998 and the one after October, 1998 when I was exonerated. To this day, I have trouble relating to small children, not because I ever did anything wrong, but just because I was accused of harming an innocent child when I taught.
Other falsely accused teachers who have contacted me have said the very same thing. Why that happens I do not know.
But the two best things about my false accusation was all the new supportive friends I made and still am in contact with; and how close my wife and I have come to God. We could feel the prayers of everyone as we went through this nightmare.
And I have resolved to never again ignore anyone I know who is suffering in a physical or mental way. I looked for those phone calls and letters of support everyday during my agony. Maybe that’s the lesson God wanted me to learn.